What Now

To night was the night that I remembered everything. July 2 2014 Wednesday 2:29 am. "What Now" by Rihanna was the song I used to listen to before I moved back with my dad. I remember a month ago I looked at the song and couldn't remember what was so important about it but when I listen to it I remembered it all. The pictures I painted. This song inspired me so much. I made the picture I made for Joao to this song. It meant so much about it. The roads ahead of me are very scary. But you know I can't give up just because you want me to. I'm not filled with lies I'm just surrounded by them. I remember that I changed and he came at the right time. I sent him the "Neglected" and he said it was sad. I want two completely different guys and I have excepted that but I can't be like his ex's. I live him and I don't wanna hurt him like they did. He is too much of a good person for that. I know I did something wrong and I have to fix it. But I already have all the answers to my problems. I won't cry no more I promise. I swore that I wouldn't before but I broke that promise but this is different I won't cry at all. I will grow as a tree does. Fly like a bird. Be as free as an eagle. Silent like a ninja. Climb like goats up life's mountains. And dream as big as possible.