Love

      Some try to deny that they are in love and when they finally admit it, it usually too late. And that was what happened to me. Having hope that the person that you love, loves you back is horrible. It's horrible when they never tell you how they feel or if they love someone else. I felt like the guy that I loved never loved or liked me back. Back then I was naïve and only cared about what people thought, sometimes I didn't think first about what people who think by my actions when I should have. I was a fool. I got to close. I called him my best friend and let him in and when he didn't try to see me or show that he missed me I cried and felt like.
          "I'm a lightweight"............... Life shouldn't be about  waiting for someone to tell you they love you or wanting or wishing for them to tell you that you are there everything.
        Some try to make themselves fall in love cause they want to know how it feels. "Falling in love is so bitter sweet".
         When I feel in love it was unexpected I don't even remember when I realized that I liked him. But I remember when I found out that I was in love with him. It was right when I lost him. I was texting random people about him. It was 3 days after I moved back with my dad and stepmother. Love is painful and getting over it was and still is hard. I never felt the way I felt about anyone the way I felt about him. I was in denial at first even tried to be his enemy, but he wasn't that easy to hate. I cursed him out said I hated him but that all changed when I said I loved him in a text to him. He's a topic that I try to never bring up. How we started is a story I'd like to save for another time.