Cheating

I'm officially a cheater
I tell him I love him
Then I ask someone else out
He tells me he would get a job for me
He would make it work and that he loves me
While I die inside cause I neglected him
Cause I cheated
I never cheated on anyone before and I never planned on
It was all my fault I could have said no and not flirt with him but I said I wanted it.
I'm a horrible person
Its eating me up inside
I cheated on the guy I love.
I'm such a bad person

Im done

I'm done with this trying shit. When you actually wanna do something then you don't try you do. Don't say your gonna start over then you forget the damn past. You don't keep bringing it up. If your gonna get a head then you don't try you actually do it. Dont make me live with you fucked up mistakes. I don't wanna live with your stupid life. I wanna choose for myself. You don't have to choose for me. And the mistakes I make don't fuck my life up badly. They piss me off so much. Why do they blame me for their mistakes. I'm soo done.

My past

Chapter1:
Once upon a time
I was just a little girl
All alone in this big world
She played all by her self
Sad alone friendless
She had no one
Only sometimes people or a person would come into her kingdom
Most wouldn't dare enter her castle
She was all alone
Then one day a little prince came into her castle through the window
She was excited that someone actually came to see her
The little prince and the little girl became friends and would talk all day
Her friend Lisa came and they all played
But this wasn't the case
She wasn't really a princess
She was just a little girl who lived with her father
She had no friends

The Numbers I Live For

The 27th he agreed to be my boyfriend.
The 26th he broke up with me.
The 14th was the last time I saw him.
The last time he texted me was the 21st
I kissed him 0 times
The 20th he agreed to be my boyfriend.
The 6th was the last time I saw him
The last time I talked to him was the 7th
I kissed him more then 7 times
Well these are the numbers of love and my life.So Bye?

Grayhound

Well I'm waiting at a station to get on a greyhound. Omg this is place sucks. Us getting on it was delayed and everyone is irritated. I think imma bout to kill everyone. Swear I hate this and my mom didn't call me at all.

Miss him

More and more I start to miss him
I really wanna see him again
Kiss him
Hug him
Talk to him
See him
And love him more than I ever
I miss him
More than I ever could
I love him
I really wanna see him
He's not like the rest
I know he loves me too
He's a perv but I still love him
He's a geek
Tall
Pretty eyes
A sweet heart
The guy I love

Diamonds

I'm sad
Depressed
A big mess
Thinking of all the good memories
How you never made me feel lonely
Or second guess my feelings
I'm no good at goodbyes but this time I won't cry cause I lived the way I wanted to
I didn't feel sad
I love that you existed in my world
I love you
I'm no good at expressing my feelings either
But the way you made me feel made it hard not to smile with a real smile not a fake
I'm happy that I owned a piece of your heart
I'm feeling so much that its hard to express
I was scared to have our lips touch but when our lips did touch I wanted it to happen again
You are my rainbow on my rainy day
My lotus flower growing in depression
Thank you and goodbye

My anime pics

See me

Its OK I'm alright.
Same old stupid things in my life.
I'm hurting while you ain't worried about damn thing.
My wounds stopped healing.
All my scars are showing.
As here think about you.
Somebody save me.
Somebody please show this poor heart mercy.
I'm breaking apart.
Falling deeper down then I ever thought I could.
And you were never there from the start.
You left me all alone.
But what does it matter as long as your not hurt.
Please save me.
I'm breaking
I need more than you could ever know.
See me for me not for all the broken pieces.
Dont leave me
Don't replace me
And especially don't FORGET ME.