No Love Allowed

Someone call 911. I'm dying. Him in my mind drives me crazy. I want it all to go away now. No love allowed. He don't feel the same, so I shouldn't'. Him being interested in me was all in my head.
   Trying to get over the past is hard. I want to lose all contact with him but another part wants to keep it all. Keeping it all isn't an option.
   I want to stop writing and thinking bout him. What happen to everyone else. I only talk to one girl from the there.
   I was finally forgetting about him abd then he texts me when my phone is on 2% and says "hi u haven't texted me in a month". Well he hasn't texted me in a month either. Why did he have to do that.
  He drives me crazy. He was the  first person I actually considered to trust(I trusted). He made me believe in boys again. After all the shit I've been through I was counting on him to fix me and he did. And that's why I miss him so much. But now I realized I'm just the past to him nothing more. He has forgotten about me and replaced me( or was I the replacement). Like I thought. I was just going to be replaced.
    I hated all men/boys because one boy pissed on my, and told everyone in school. They all laughed at me. I felt so alone. One guy did that to me and that made me hate them all. I'm just like my father for that. My dad hates all women cause some fucked him over. But everyone will fuck you over sooner or later.
    So no love allowed. Cause when I fall in love you'll just hurt me.