11-25-2013

  I was trying to deal with the frustration I was feeling . While I was finally fixing my broken heart my dad was trying to fix things with Tonya even though he knew deep down inside that it wasn't going to work . Tonya wasn't really about to stop her games and nether was my dad.
   My grandma was probably going to have a very cold and lonely Thanksgiving . Even if she wouldn't admit it . Thanksgiving is about spending one day with your family even if you like it or not to eat and to be thankful to be blessed with such wonderful and different people . Even if it is friends or family you should appreciate that their there for you .
  I on the other hand didn't want a Thanksgiving for once . If I did have one I didn't want it to be with my family . Things were just too much for me to handle . I know that all the things my dad said he would do wouldn't happen . I knew thins because when Tonya gets mixed with my dad I move they act like children and then in the end us children get hurt .
  Why is it that parents  tell you they know what's best but when they screw up or make a mistake it  hurts us children ? Tonya's not the bad guy here but it is partly her fault too but it was really just my dad . He knows what's going to happen if he goes back to Tonya . He's the selfish one ,the child in this case . They tell us to know are place as children but , they do most of the wrong . They say to act correct in school or in public because ewe are a reflection of them . But when they get in trouble we get made fun of at school even at home , and we're called the screw ups not them . They say its so hard being a grown up . But it even harder being a child who just wants to fit in be cool with the other kids .And if they don't have nice clothes , nice shoes , nice hair , nice house ,and aren't funny enough we get picked on . The other kids go along for they wont be picked on . And your all probably thinking how would she know . Well I know because I've been to eight different schools and seen it all happen .
     I'm one of those children . Sometimes in gym I'm so scared I'll mess up and everyone will scold me that I don't give it any effort . And they all still glare at me whisper things in the shadows .
 So why are we children when they act so childish?