Your Feelings

I can't except your feelings that you don't have for me . You say you love me but I know that it's not true . I see right through your little joke . It's all fun in games in till I crush you and stomp your fake love and you into the ground . And even if it's not just some stupid joke for your amusement I do not like you to put it bluntly . I can not hate you for this but I can not except this annoyance to keep accruing in my life just for you can get a good laugh at it . So monkey-ears you just have been rejected . Deal with it like a man and leave me alone . I use to keep these kind of things going until my questions on what would happen if I did something where answered . But that was the old me the me I do not want to be . So how I answered his confession was with a mature message and a sincere apology . I think I did an excellent job this time . I'm not quit sure what he will reply back to my message but I hope it ends it all . Well Bye And Good Luck To You In Solving Your Life Problems Too !!!

Crying Over Nothing

I can't cry I have too much pride and dignity too . I feel like I want to cry but I don't know why I should cry . I guess I just want to cry . I'm still confused about my own feelings on the situations
that I'm in right now . Bye !

My Mother

My mother and I you could say not on speaking levels I see her but not very often . We causally exchange words but not a lot . I don't live with my mother . I live with my father . People constantly bring her up . I just want to leave her alone and stay away . I don't care about her at all but she's the only way I can see my sisters . That might be harsh but if she didn't return your phone calls and you call everyday . Her excuse for you not being able to see her or come over is she has something more important to do . On birthdays and holidays she got you nothing . If I didn't come over to house a week after she got it she would give it to my younger sister . She wouldn't talk nor listen to me if I asked a question . The only thing I regret doing to my mom is sending her those letters . You'll find out about those letters later but a year ago I sent her 3 of them . Well Bye!!!

Politness

I'm trying to be very polite towards  people for they don't think I don't have any manners . What I mean is like when I answer then telephone  instead of picking it up I answer and properly answer . And if I can not achieve this then I failed myself as a person . The things I do is something a idiot would do . Also saying thank you and your welcome , when some one sneezes say bless you instead of nothing or blesh you . Blesh is not even a word so why do they not say it properly .
      Some Facts About It : Well "Bless You" came from Pope Gregory the Great in the sixth century during the plague because sneezing is a sign of the plague so that's how bless you came to be .
  Well Bye !

Rest In Peace

Well my dream turned out to be true . Just change the place and characters . What happened in my dream was that someone died that was close to me . I told them all but they just didn't listen to me . They said it was just a dream and I shouldn't worry about it . The weird thing is that I had this dream exactly a week before on Sunday . I'm not sure if it was just a coincidence but the present and the same silence was there .

      To: Pablo
I hope you had a good life . I hope you see and spend forever in happiness . I will always love you even through I can't see you . Rest in peace .
       
             Well Bye !

Death

What would you do if you felt or knew you where close to death . I'm asking this because I had a dream when some one very close to me died . I have dreams like this all the time but there was something special about this one . In this dream right before it ended I seen my step-sister and I sitting on her bed and I exactly said ''You know the weird thing is my dream actually came true '' . And then after that things including the dead showed up more and more . I'm not scared at all , maybe just a little confused . Well Bye !

Anime

I have watched lot of anime in the past two years . Well here's the list of most of them
1.Clannad
2.Clannad After Story
3.Fruit Basket
4.Inu X Boku Secret Service
5.Air
6.Angel Beats
7.Black Butler
8.Black Butler season 2
9.Boys Over Flowers
10.Soul Eater
11.Corpse Princess
12.Dance In The Vampire Bund
13.DearS
14.Dream Eater Merry
15.Durarara
16.Eden of the West
17.Full Metal Panic
18.Fushigi Yuugi
19.Highschool of the Dead
20.His and Her Circumstance
21.Karin
22.Kaichou wa Maid-sama
23.Vampire Knight
24.Vampire Knight Guilty
25.Marmalade Boy
26.Nana
27.Ouran High School Host Club
28.Paradise Kiss
29.Rosario and Vampire
30.Rosario and Vampire Capu2
31.Save Me Lollipop
32.Samuria 7
33.Spice and Wolf
34.Spice and Wolf Season 2
35.Zero no Tsukaima
36.The Wallflower
37.Suzuka
38.Death Note
39.Another
40.Hiiro No Kakera 
41.Peach Girl
42.Special A.    
43. Fullmetal Alchemist
45.K Project
46.Kokoro Connect      
47.Blood Lad
48.Date A Live  
49.Cowboy Bebop
50.Bleach
51.Blue Exorcist
52.Watamote
53. Beyond The Boundary
54.Paranoia Agents
55.Attack on Titan
56.The Familar of Zero
57.Itzura na Kiss
58.Say I Love You
59.Kamisama Kiss
60.Accel World
61.B Gata H Kei
62.Future Diary
63.The World God Only Knows
64.Is This A Zombie?
65.The World Of Narue
66.No.6
67.Saikano
68.Space Dandy
69.Tokyo Underground

I Can't Believe You

I don't feel like trusting them . I don't want to believe you . I really don't even care anymore

It's Just How I Am

I'm me my opinions on things have nothing to do with anyone but myself . Yes I watch anime and read manga . I like reading articles about Marvel and DC superheroes . I love rainy days , ice cream and being by myself . But that's me . I don't like being criticized . I hate being introduced to new people . I'm super shy but that's me not anyone else but me if you can't except me then just leave me alone . I don't like when people act like hypocrites but everyone is , and some times I am to . I know I'm not the greatest but who is so I think people are not as smart as they say they are if they don't know that . Well Bye !

 

The Blooming Of A Young Girl's Heart

A few years back I heard that a girl's heart is like a flower and it blooms at the sight of love or when you become mature . It's kind of like self discovering , when you truly find your self you understand the situation more than you did before . Well maybe not . Girls' hearts are hard to describe but they beautiful things . In the spring mine is at full bloom . So I always kind of thought of my heart as a flower I'm not sure what flower but just picturing it makes me smile .
     
     My Pappy Denny before he died use to grow flowers and so did I but now I just like looking at them instead . Just to think how fast the years have flew . Well good bye !

Why The Rain

The rain is my favorite type of weather . I especially love thunder storms . I love the part in a thunder storm where the power goes out and when your sitting there in suspense . Every time I look at the rain I just get mesmerized by how beautiful it looks .

Same Things Everydays

Same things everyday , every year . My life is full of the same ending and same disappointments . But everyone's is , isn't it . When I do something I know what the effect will be and the impression I give off is . So I do certain things and don't do some things in front of people and I usually end up explaining myself to people . My dad and his friend found the most embarrassing thing some one could find of mine . The thing they found was a romantic story that I wrote , it's so embarrassing , I just wanted to die . They probably told their friend at work , telling their friends that it was so stupid and they expected more or No they probably laugh and made jokes about it . I felt so stupid when I heard they read it . Every day I feel embarrassed  .  The same things every day just an unstoppable force I guess . well bye

Graffiti

My Reasoning

The reason for this blog and all the stuff I type is because the truth is that I'm very scared to tell people how I feel and since this is anonymous nobody can judge or tell who I am . I hate explaining to people the way I think and why I do the things I do and why I act the way I do  things . People just like judging others for they can get out all of there frustrations in life or maybe because they envy some one  and they are scared to let them know they do so they do the opposite of how they feel. And a lot of people do it . Like how boys pick on girls when they have a crush on them . Boys act the opposite to protect them self from getting hurt . Well bye!

Is This Really Me

Is this really me ? I made some one I don't even know marked down in side my brain as an enemy . Just because I let one of my silly emotion take over my head . This emotion is called jealousy . How could I do that ,that's not me I usually think in terms of the situation to find the best way to get though it . But then this emotion , no this feeling for some one took over my mind . Am I turning into some one that I do not know of or is it that it was just in that situation . Now I'm scared I don't want to turn into one of those people who thinks only out of emotions . I want to be some one who thinks rational and reasonable of things not a stupid living being who let their stupidity and emotions get the best of them . Am I really that pathetic . Well I did know that one day I would have this feeling about some one and do something stupid . Good thing I didn't take action with these feelings of jealousy of mine . I will always want the best for that person but I see now that I'm not worthy of having him as a friend . Well bye!

Use To Be

The nights use to be longer .The days use to be shorter now they're like a blink of an eye . I use to be ....

I have nothing to say

I don't know what to say I guess you could say I'm speechless in this situation . I don't know how to say that I'm anti-social . I'm not exactly anti-social Anti-social ,well It's not like that with one person I'm not going to say that person's name . But  with that person I can just say what ever I trust that person . I trust some of my family too but that person is different that person just listens to me , cares , and is sincere in every way . How can you beat that you can't that's the person I love well I'm not sure if I should call it love . I don't know if that person feels the same but I do know that I care a lot about that person . I once confessed to that person in the spring of 2012 with my sister . She 's the one who talked me into it . I liked that person for 3 months but couldn't bring up enough courage to tell that person . I once tried to tell that person but I said ''I like '' and then that person said you like me and then said ''NOOOO I hate you bye see you tomorrow since I hate you '' . On my way home I my way home I felt so stupid . A week before summer started I went over my mom's house and on my last day there I spent most of my day with that person and I realize I haven't seen that person in almost a year . And now I realized that all of the feelings I had for that person came back but I cant tell that person yet but I'll give it some time and if I still feelings then I'll tell that person .


I need some advice

A Life of a young girl

These days a girl in middle school has to dress to impress . Just to have friends you have to wear nice and expensive clothing . Girls number one priority is to get a boyfriend and impress your friends . There so young but they don't care they do their make up like they're adults . I'm in middle school now but I don't dress like they do I dress a properly . Girls are in a hectic in this state of their lives .
They need some on to inspire them , no guide them to be strong and independent young ladies that they should be . I understand wanting to be loved by your friends , well I don't understand because I really and I mean really don't care about what people think so I guess I don't understand how they feel .But what I do know is that they are desperate for friends and to be loved by some one .I don't get why , like what's so good about being loved .I think trying to be loved is to much work for just that and being loved is not really as good as it seems . Being loved brings to much attention to one person . I prefer being just acquaintances or a friend that people just come to for advice . But it depends on what kind of person you are .

Life As Me

My life well it's mostly people telling me what to be and who to be .I'm so tired of people telling me things that I don't want to hear . You're you not me I'm me so stay out of my life . I might be young
but I'm smarter than the average child .
 I'm me not you!!!!