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I wanna hide

To much stuff is happening and I wanna just hide in my closet. I really wanted to see him today. But of course he was absent. Today of all the days he would get sick. Like what! I wish I coild have saw him. Today was my last day too. What the crap. Like does god hate me or something.

How Will I Know

  How will I know that I'll be happy. It was your decision not mine. I was happy before.
  How will I know that I'll see you again.
  How will I know that I won't miss you.
  How will I know that someone will catch me if I shall fall.
  How will I know that happiness will come again.
  How do I know that you miss me or that you won't replace me.

Him

I got him, the guy I liked. Now I gotta leave him. Why cant I just be wit him. Even if its just hanging out. All I wanna do is stay. But its already too late, its over. Now what is there left for me. Why can't I stay.

5th Grade

The beginning of 5th grade I lived with my mother. I was so stupid. All I cared about was my own feelings and what I wanted. I only  stayed with my mon until it got close to Christmas. Then I started a new school. I throught it was a chance for a new beginning but I was wrong. All of the kids at the new school judged me , called me names and all I wanted to do was beat them up. I never layed a single finger on them. I always let people push me around and tell me what to do. So it was ok just to let them do it. I never wanted to talk to people not even family. In the past I was scared to mess up and say something the wrong way.

Love U

I love him. Even though he doesnt love me. I let french words determine my fate. I wasn't sure if the words were "I love you" or "I hate you".He's a good person .He's true and I love to lie. To make it worse I told him on facebook that he was 15 steps ahead of me and that it's like he's just not even trying while I'm running for my life to catch up. I also said that he should jump off a cliff and he's in the sky and im scared to fly. His response to this is that if I want to catch up I should jump off a cliff (metaphorical) to fly. Then I said who's gonna catch me if I dont fly and he of corse had to saybi will and we'll start again. Why does he have to be so kind. I would love if I could hate him or for him to hate me but it just won't happen. I even ended up telling what happen on Christmas this year , and some very personal stuff that I just wont tell ti other people. I dont understand why i like him so much. Well I do know but I want to know to stop.

Never Should Have

         I never have started loving him. He was the only person I wasn't supposed to love but I ended up. I'm only 13 years old and I've fallen in love. Why did it have to be me? Why did it have to be him especially him?  He's just supposed to just be a friend but I love. I tried denying it but I can't lie to myself forever. I don't know if he likes me but I won't find out. Well Bye ???